So I’m on the Master Cleanse detox day 8. Can you believe it – I haven’t eaten for 8 days!
I feel great. Seriously. For the first time in my life I’m one of ‘those’ people who can say things like “I haven’t had this much energy in years” and “I can just feel I’m so much healthier.” And yes, you’re welcome to roll your eyes at me – I did the same to others
So on the good side I really do have more energy than I’ve had in yonks and I feel clean. On the bad side I’m definitely detoxing so I don’t have the most attractive tongue and today I woke up with cold symptoms (runny nose etc) which is another way of detoxing.
A current unknown is how my physique has done over the last 8 days. I took measurements at the beginning and won’t take until 2 days time again so don’t know about weight loss and to be perfectly honest, this Cleanse has been about so much more than that or anything I ever expected.
For anyone that’s fasted for faith reasons or as a personal challenge, you know how depriving yourself of the comfort and distraction of food can bring so much else into focus. To be honest the details of what I’ve been challenged on are too personal but because you guys are on this journey with me I want to share the basics with you. It’s all key to my progress so it fits right in here.
Basically I’ve been taken to the core of me and challenged to restore things to their rightful place. I’ve realised that it’s been pretty much ME at the center of everything for the last few years. There was a long season where I simply had to hunker down in survival mode to face some storms in my life, but that time’s over now and I can stand up again, put on my big girl panties and make place at my core for others again. First and foremost are my husband and children.
I’m amazed at how much has changed already in such a short time. My husband and children have been restored to me as literal dreams come true and I have back an inner strength and discipline I’ve lacked for years. Yes I still have bad habits in these areas and won’t be perfect in my discipline, motherhood, wifehood or anything else for that matter. But there’s been a fundamental shift back to a healthy center and a happier me.
I’d like to say I just floated along into all this revelation and change with a smile on my face and my hair style in tact, but unfortunately the good came along with the bad and the ugly. I had angry and sad days, I stumbled constantly against myself and the things that were changing, I cried and I wanted to stop the Cleanse early on a few occasions etc. (Thanks to Karin for doing the Cleanse with me – you pulled me through each time!)
But I would, and probably will, do it all again sometime. To do something challenging enough that moves the surface you out the way so that the real you can come into focus and be challenged to change is both a big ask and a big blessing.
I’m glad I’m doing it and I have no doubt it’s taken me leaps and bounds ahead in my journey to healing Between the Lines.